MY MEMORIES
Thursday, June 14, 2007
It's been a long time since I have posted an entry on here. In the past updating my blog daily has always been a routine for me because 1)I had nothing to do on the internet and 2)it was a way of letting out frustrations. But now I realise that posting everything on here is quite scary because u really don't know who is reading what and then 'making up+spreading' what you have wrote. There are many things I really want to just let it out but then I really don't know what are the means available excluding a blog and a diary which my sis will tend to read. ergh!
Anyways, enough of my views up there. I really cannot believe that my life has taken such a turn since coming back from the internship. Apparantly leaving here for 5mths had made some things worst because now I do know what I look for and what I do not look for. Many things which I had put behind me, or rather have totally forgotten since 4yrs ago had come back and is really knocking hard at my door. I find that I tend to turn a blind eye to the flaws just to maintain things at status quo and I managed to totally deceive myself for 6yrs. For the 6yrs I thought I was really lucky to have found such precious things that I could cherish for life but now, I really find myself unbelievably stupid. Come to think of it, the fact didn't hit me earlier because I did not have to deal with it in my face. So what now? I really don't know. Originally things that I thought to be able to keep me surviving my soon-miserable-life are falling apart on its own. Can someone save me from this? I really need a miracle.
Upon reflecting on my life, I seriously realise I changed alot. I have always claimed that it is because I have grown up and have matured but it's seriously not the main reason. I really don't like the real "me" now but it's also impossible to find the person I used to be back now. What should I do?
Oh God, Please HELP me!!!!
``Your name ; 10:51 PM
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